how can i begin this post? its been soo long since i last posted an entry.. hmm... the past few days were certainly the worst of my life. I dont have enough words to explain how I feel. im just going to share with you what exactly happened.

23 February 2006
I was going about doing my usual business, my bag tagging along behind me. I really taught that I have learned from my past experience, losing money and all. The day semed like any other day for me., fun and happy. It was club assessment and as the treasurer of Bidlisiw[our yearbook] I was excused from all my classes and thereby was asked to obeserve the ongoing assessment, even though our own assessment was still this friday. There I was thinking, "oh, how lucky can you get?" After the asssessment, I went down and played "chinese garter" The last time I played was maybe when I was still in elementary. Unlike any other thursday, we had no club meeting. So after hard play, me and my friends decided to go home. As I rode the jeepney, I noticed that most of the passengers were fellow fourth year students. Well, as usual, we were loud, but that was okay for me. Coz like I said, it was mostly pisayans in the jeepney. As I neared the intersection where I was to get off, I searched for my fare in my bag. Now well, my close friends would know that I harbor 2 purses, the white mercury drug purse and the green medicine purse The first purse that I stumbled upon was the green purse, I quickly discarded it because the money it stored was the bilisiw collections and the force funds. The white purse supposedly stored my own money. Alas! I found my white purse amidst all my things, then I finally got my fare. A couple of us were to go to SpaceBurger for a snack, so there was quite a number of us that got off the jeep. As we were walking towards SB, I noticed that my bag was open. kinutoban na ako doon pa lang kaya binilisan ko ang lakad papunta sa SB. When we arrived at SB, I quickly seaerched my bag for my 2 purses, and as luck would have it.... I only found 1. The feeling of insanity quickly stumbled my senses. Then suddenly.... there was emptiness. If only I could describe how the tears flowed fom my eyes that night. I cant help but feel so disappointed with myself. This just shows how irresponsible I am. After all those precautionary measures that I took. hai... inisip ko pa nga magpakamatay nalang sa sobrang pagiging depressed. The 3000 bucks that I myself would replenish could have been used for better means. p*****-i** talaga!!!!!!!!!!

25 Februiary 2006
say bye-bye to braces.... After four years, my braces are finally out.... well, the upper portion only.... hehehe

25-27 February 2006
...... complete and utter depression...........black and white.......emptiness....... the best words to describe that moment of my life. People who know me would know that , these things would be so out of my vocabulary. All the energy seemed to run out of my system. After that episode, it seems that no real laughter or smile would ever, ever escape my lips. Mind is too preoccupied of thinking about ways to get that 3000 bucks back to listen to the teacher, or even prepare for the exams due the next day. I cant study. I cant concentrate. Definitely not myself. Seems like this would never end.

28 February 2006
...... exams....physics....... hell.......no study.......... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I entered Neutrron [my section] i am prepared to die. Physics [my worst subject] is the first exam due on the first day of our 3-day exam. wala na tlga akong pag-asa nito.. Ruth, who is my seatmate was going on about the UPCAT results... putik!!!!! isa pa yan!!!! I was dreading the results of UPCAT. The day I took the UPCAT, I was not in condition nor in the mood at all. Few days before the UPCAT I was confined in the hospitral for dengue isa pang putik. The day before the exam, I was released due to my persuation skills. hoi no!! d ako papayag na hindi ako makakatake ng upcat exams!!!! HA! After the exams, it was official. The UPCAT RESULTS are out!!!! My heart was pounding, my hands are sweaty as I waited for news about my results. My friend Kamille has a brother studying in UP DILIMAN so we had an update on those who passed via sms. Depression mode blasted to full force when I was informed that unfortunately, I didnt pass upcat... parang gumuho yung buong mundo ko... puro nalang kamalasan ang dumadating sa buhay ko... I mean come on.... who would not feel bad about not passing UP.... hahai.... it seems I was really bound for SILLIMAN UNIVERSITY. I have no other options unless I just want to study here in Davao. [UP and SILLIMAN are the only schools I took entrance exam.] . ai tama! pumasa rin pala ako sa msu iligan.. pero di naman ako papayagan na doon mag-aral waa!!!!! but it seems life just played a joke on me. As were eating our lunch, another friend Ruth me kapatid xa sa UP LB naman told me that I PASSED!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!! Depression mode suddenly disappeared... HAHA!!!!!!!! I was one of the many who shouted for joy!!!!! YEHEY!!!!! Even if I dont like my course that much, I am still super glad I passed UP DILIMAN!!!! yehey!!!!!!! At least I have more options now...
BORMUEL, KAY MACAVINTA --- DILIMAN CAMPUS---BS MATERIALS ENGINEERING
wahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!! :D

03 March 2006
Exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The nothing-to-do-but-just-nothing days are finally here!!!! Grades are the only thing I need to worry about now... Depression mode went down a notch... :D
04 March 2006
It is a saturday and due to what happened last 23 February 2006, I have no plans to go malling or any other gimicks,... for short no plans to spend money.... haha... After going to the dentist, I went home straight. I was about to go to a deep slumber when my friend Marian called. She was inviting me to come-over to their house to watch the episodes of "MY NAME IS KIM SAM SOON" hehehe.... This is the latest Korean tela novela Im going la-la about since Only you!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!!!! The storyline is just so hilarious and Hyeon Bin is just soooooooo utterly handome!!!!! I stayed in their house until 9:00 pm thereby putting to risk my chance of going to DILIMAN.... owell.... Im just so crazy about it.... wahahahha...... CYRUS/ JIN HEON!!!!!!