my refuge.my solace.my only escape..

..after 48 years..

2006-05-25T14:24:00.000+08:00

its been quite a while, but the tears still keep on flowing. I never thought that his absence would affect me so much. It annoys the hell out of me that I could not even say goodbye to him properly. I didn't even get to send him off. When he called me 2 days ago, I was trying my best not to cry on the phone. shit. I hate this. I am not this emotional. argh. missin him soo much. hoping and always praying for his safety. Lord G0d, watch over him for me.

..waaa... getting used being a UP stud. hahah. got my Id yesterday. waa. also got my e-card already for the DOST scholarship. it was kinda dorky. It has "I AM A SCHOLAR" at the front. but it is way better than my previous atm. haha

i want to get my yearbo0k!!! hahah. Finally! it is over! hahah. After having been stolen from etc. the root of all evil is 0ut. hahah go0d luck to the next treasurer. May the unfortunate things that happened to me, not happen to you.

Special thanks to raniel for getting my yearbook. waaa... luvyah my friend!

meeting loads of new peeps here. Thats wat you get when you stay at the dorm, you meet loads form different places. haha

missin my family-- my m0m, my br0 and my father.

missin my pets-- kiray and isk0

missin my frendz-- the force, alec, pisay illumina, mtv youth

missin my room-- comfy space I have for myself

missin my bo0ks-- it is so0 damn boring here especially our classes are half day now.

missin the pc-- hahah...

missin him.

..a day after enrollment..

2006-05-12T09:38:00.000+08:00

..nyahah nu idea for other titles.. just booked my ticket this morning, so there's a 50% probability that I could still go home before classes[the real one] really starts.. [yehoo!!!yey!!!hooo!!] haha. I miss davao soo much. It is just know that I could appreciate its beauty, simplicity, clean fresh air and beautiful surroundings. Now dont get me wrong, Manila is a beautiful and really exciting place once you get used to it. But still, there's no place like home. Can't wait to see my family, my dogs my room and xempre my friends.

My flight is scheduled on the 1st of June at approx 1100. I know it is so impractical since I would probably be home for just a week, considering that classes starts on the 13th. [sayang masyado yung pera!!!] owell. Never mind that. Look on the positive side, ayt? just trying to be optimistic these days.. hehe

I was pretty pissed off this morning. My father already filled up the dormitory sheet that was given to parents which states their instructions, blah, blah. Pretty frustrated that after all these time, he is still so strict and has little faith and trust in me. [that's what you get that when your the bunso and the only girl.] its just so argh!!!!! i mean, all these years I tried my best to be the best daughter for them. [ok, maybe not that really hard.] but considering my record, i could still say that I am waay better than a hell lot of kids. [masyado bang mayabang] Well, it is true!

After a while, I suddenly felt guilty [this is always the problem with me.] I mean, I know he is just doing what he THINKS is best for me. Owell. Thinking of things to make me look on the positive side of this issue.

Didn't I say that I was trying to be optimistic?

lol.

fat chance

..enrollment..

2006-05-10T21:05:00.000+08:00

crAp... i was completely restless during our enrollment. [pano ba naman?! sa haba ng pila na yun!!!] My God.. as in.. Didn't thought that enrollment would take that l00oooong. The briefing was also long, but at least the Engineering Theatre have an aircon. It seemed like heaven compared to the crap of a classrom we have our classes in, due to certain temparature ISSUES. I dont think I remember a day that I didn't produce a kilo of sweat, all natural due to the freaking room temparature, thank you very much. Ho0t, I thought my sweat glands w0uld just collapse from over work.. [hahaha] Honestly, temparature here is n0t n0rmal!!! Nyeiz, after spending four hours in the AS [arts and science also known as palma hall] and sacrificing my lunch considering the l0ng line, for the confirmation of my sked, payments etc. I finally finished! I am officially a registered freshman with no lunch! [haha]

Bull. I did get to pre-enlist online, a day before the deadline. Was so freakin happy. When I saw my sked, I am so0 frustrated. [huhu] Instead of enjoying, making laag, or whatever, I dont get to enj0y my "supposedly classes-free" wednesday and saturday. Shitty. How can I have classes during those days?! I was hoping to have those dayz as my off dayz... But n0o0.... khaye has classes not in the morning, but bef0re lunch. Fuckit. Hate that Phil0! [huhu] Dony know what possesed me to tkae those damn classes, along with Socio [famous for REQUIREMENTS GALORE]. So much for the lets-take-these-classes-for-more-knowledge. Damnit.

This sucks. Am I this *cursed?

Or maybe this is just destined?

Looking at it on the brighter side, maybe it really is meant to be...

Tell you when I know.

..a day before enrollment..

2006-05-09T10:04:00.000+08:00

haha. bo0ring... got nothing to do ad usual.. i should actually be in the NIGS building having my math class, but instead I am making a post!! haha.. Im with my insan right now. Got tired of walking around UP and this freakingly [is there such a word?] abnormal temparature.. hahah so here we are in the net cafe. its a nice change, getting away from those bo0ring classes, but I admit I miss those cute guys in our class. [haha jowk!]

tomorrow's our enrollment, i think I haven't forgot anything else.[really hope so] Go to have the dorm orientation within this week. Still dont know where I am staying. hahah. [better make up my mind pretty soon] wahaha.

From what I have heard, a lot of ILLUMINA peeps are already here in Manila or in the dorm, but I only got to see only a few of them. hAHAH. owell. ill probably see them pretty soon. Even if the campus is really big, they cant escxape me!!! [hahah]

Is it pretty obvious that I've got nothing else to write?! hahah did I mention that I am bo0red? hehehe

I think a couple of times already..

Ciao!

..this sucks..

2006-05-05T09:47:00.000+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! today is a friday and i normally enjoy fridays, but this is not a normal one, so I dont get to enjoy it. wa!!!!

I am supposed to be attending classes her in UP, but since I was late [surprise, surprise] when I reached our "supposed" to be room, no one was there. I have no idea where everyone is and my damn cellphone is playing tricks on me again. Can anyone get luckier? I hate this. ARGH!!! So after wasting my time on walking around the campus, I decided to drop by and make a post.

I know UP is big. But I didn't expect it to be that BIG. hahah. I was trying to find our class, but it seems like a stupid thing to do, knowing it would take me more than a day to know where the hell they are without any means of communication with anyone of them. hahah.

Missin my family and friends. Yesterday, Hubs, Renel, Migs and I toured [more like a marathon] the campus. It was fun. But when I tried to do it today, I didn't find much joy to it. Owell, its almost lunch. Gotta start wondrin' around. Better find Pearl. I cant miss another class!

Wonder where the really are..

..its eating me up..

2006-04-30T00:21:00.000+08:00

this is it. after the long awaited debate, discussions and sermons it is final. i am going to study in UP Diliman. To think that I have awaited and anticipated this for so long, i cant understand what this is I am feeling. expect that of me, kbow tlga..

The day before was my friend Danica's 17th birthday. I am soo happy for her. kala ko na nga hindi ako makakapunta. hahaha.. buti nalang.. This just shows that Dan would always be special to me. char lang! Normally, I would be celebrating and singing at the top of my lungs, but that wasn't the case. True, partly because "My name is Kim Sam Soon" is about to end, but there was just a part of me that didn't feel like celebrating. sowey, dan.. It just reminded me of the Batch Illumina and how much I missed and will miss them. shucks! nagdrama na jud ko.. ahhaha I know its so urgh, call it cold feet but I cant help but think that, by sunday night I would not be here anymore.

Yep, my flight today is scheduled at 8:20 pm bound for manila. I know that most of my batchmates are also going there but I cant help but feel that DREAD to be far away from my family. Well, we are all bound to be separated with my father, but i would surely miss my mother and brother though we bicker most of the time. luv ko parin naman sila. The fact that I dont get to say goodbye to my *pargies* nik namin ng bro ko for one another since mga 5 pa kami The fact that I get to stay in the dorm or Cavite or Mandaluyong, the last two expected to be draining due to travelling issues, is fun and exciting but also scary. I was born in Manila, but it has been nearly 8 years since I last stepped foot there. It is to be a new journey ahead for me. I know it would be tough, but I also know it could be fun.

I love being a scholar. It makes me proud of myself and it makes me feel better by helping my parents financially. It started in High School and I plan to continue it up to college. I was lucky enough to bag the DOST scholarship, although it certainly asks a lot, it surely gives a lot also. hehe Imagine my surprise when I learned of the agreement DOST made with UP. All RA 7687 DOST scholars studying in UP, in pursuit of excellence shall be an OBLATION GRANTEE. This is an exception to the rule, that states that only one govenment scholarship could be enjoyed by a student. The RA 7687 scholars can both enjoy the DOST scholarship and Oblation grant. If in case the scholar cant meet the standards for the Oblation Grant, he still can enjoy the DOST scholarship provided the scholar has satisfied the requirements. Its not that much of a deal I know, but I just found it nice. buti nalang!! But we also have to pay the price. We are required to attend a Summer Orientaion Enrichment Program (SOEP) in the school that we choose to enroll to, in this case in UP Diliman. Sure we are to be given 1 month allowance, but instead of having a longer vacation and time here in Davao, I have to go there early, since it starts this tuesday, MAy 2, 2006. It would also be very impractical, if I was to go home after SOEP since it end on May 31, 2006 or maybe longer due to enrollment, cosidering classes will start June 13, 2006. kaya naman hindi ko mapigilang mainis!!! bakit kasi hindi pede dito?!? mas makakatipid pa ako, at mas makakasama ko family ko longer. But owell, we will just have to accept the reality and look at the positive side of it. At least I have greater time to adjust and get the hang of Manila.

LASTS. jowk. I know it wont be the last but it seems like eternity till I would be back here in Davao, here in my haus, writting posts in our pc, enjoying time with my pet dogs, reading books in the sala, watching tv and acting as if i own the place, [well, technically my parents own the place] hahah My Pisay Family, my The Draco-Hermione Fanfics Marian and I were and still crazy about. The long telebabad sessions and gimicks with my barkada. Saturday nights and laag ng mga buang moments with the MTV [Matina Teacher's Villag] YOUTH. watching corny and sappy but incredibly funny korean and some pinoy soaps. Our simple FAMILY get -to-gethers. Im trying to live without those things now. It could happen again, but not the same like it is now. Surely I would miss those moments!

It is about 1:30. still awake, parents and brother still in kidapawan. it wont be long, father and mother would also be home. Shit! I haven't finished packing my bags. Shit!

I wonder when this would happen again.
as if di nako babalik. haha

cant help but feel that way.

.. 20 days after grad..

2006-04-18T15:07:00.000+08:00

bo0ring... i never thought that life could actually be this bo0ring. I mean, I expected more this summer, like fun fun and fun? hehe waaa. bo0ring. Argh~ I still havent decided which school or what course I am to pursue. siliman, up? nursing, mat eng, food tech, med? lalallalalalalalallalalalla. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii..... waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaattttttttttttttttt aaaaaaaaaaammmmmmmmmmm iiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii goooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa dooooooooooooo??!?!! wohohoho... heeeeeeeeeeeeeelp! huhuhu.. i didnt know that i am such a fickle minded person. one minute this one, then later another....... hai.... i miss pisay. I was there yesterday and i had time to make senti yuck, conyo ba tayo? hehe. its true. The school was so unlike it was before, when there were still teachers, students and xempre kami. hai... pisay wont be the same without the illumina. I can feel it. owell, cant wait for danica's birthday!!! i wanna see them ol!! :D nyahha

..graduation day..

2006-03-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

a day full of promises.

when i woke up this morning, the first thing that entered my mind is if my friend reyjay would really come to fix my hair.. hehe silly me. still thinking bout my hair, graduation and all.. time seems to flow so fast. one minute i was sitting there having my hair fixed, then here i am, composing this post. wahaha. i was late for our baccalaureate this morning. haha graduation na nga lang, late pa rin ako. nyahhaa owell... i did have my special entrance.. all because of my hair. waa!!

I actually woke up early.. However, reyjay arrived late, about 5:30-5:45. it really didn't cross my mind that I would be late.. the next minute, when I looked at the clock it was already 7:00 waa!!! I quickly threw my uniform on and my mom's never-been-wear shoes. para tuloy akong si super woman!!! haha. To add to the commotion, my father has not yet arrive from the province!!! as in waa!!!! so we had to take the taxi. haha. all the while, i was thinking [Lord, tabang!!! grad na nga lang, late parin ako!!!! waa!!!] argh!!! talking bout a stressful morning.. when i entered the gym, father was already telling the homily.. wahaha...

TEARS.... they cant help but fall. i really had no intentions of crying, however i found my eyelids, heavy by the time we were singing our grad song.. i blame it to the person standing in front of me who was crying hardcore and to ma'am cajes who was crying mockingly.. :D waa nanisi ba!!! :D heheh oweell, cant help my self. added to the mix emotions i was feeling with the wonderful voices singing around me.. hahai... o yes, i cried. haha!!! i finally gave up! after the NO CRY CHALLENGE which I withstand last retreat... haha ayt, the lyrics of our dear grad song.

Mga Dahon ng Ala-ala

naaalala mo pa ba ang mga oras na tayo'y mgkasama?

kaibigan ika'y kasabay sa mga tawang tila wala ng bukas.

naaalala mo pa ba ang mga luhang nilunod sa ulan?

ito ang mga panahong damdami'y .. nag-aalab...

pre chor:

at kung di mo makita, liwanag ng bukas

huwag na huwag kang matatakot

may kasama ka.. haha...

chor:

aalis na pla...

di man lang namalayan ang oras ay naubos na.

at sa ating paglisan ang tanging pabaon ay.. ang pangkao..

sabay nating ginuhit ang mga tala sa alapaap

sabay nating tinahak ang daang mapaglaro

madadapa't babangon, mangnangarap at mangnangako.

ito ang mga panohong iaalay.. sayo...

pangako, kaibigan.. sayo...

sayo...

waa!!!! huhu... after the processional, i dont think we can help it but just cry... most of us, really... while our teachers started to shed their tears, i thought my heart would break... their tears seems to prove how much our batch Illumina have touched their lives as well as they touched ours..

those were the days that we have shared.... the fun, the laughter, the tears, the memories would stay tatooed not only in my mind, but also in my heart..

I WABYOO PISAY!!!

I WABYOO OUR TEACHERS!!!

I WABYOO FOREVER ILLUMINA!!!!

...nostalgia embraces me...

2006-03-23T18:25:00.000+08:00

Less than a week more to go till graduation. march 29, 2006..... the BIG day. but i dont feel anything BIG about it. I am usually not like this, and it scares the shit out of me.

last march 20, 2006, we had our retreat at Benedictine Retreat House in Ulas. Even though it was just an overnight event, it helped and gave us a glimpse of everyones private [more like family] life. The retreat was nothing I expected. I was kind of disappointed coz I felt that the my previous retreat [when i was graduating from elementary] was more..... emotional, fullfiling, satisfying? wahaha, i am proud to say that i did not cry...[although i was hoping / looking forward to it]. The retreat was more focused on family issues, i was somehow hoping that it its the batch attachment / relationships that would be more concentrated. They say that those who didn't shed a tear have no family problems... tsk,tsk,tsk... better think again.... maybe you are just so manhid, there are just NO TEARS LEFT TO SHED anymore...wahaha... but still, I know it helped us release baggages we separately carry.

Intrams... waa!!!! well, this year's intrams is the most INTENSE intrams ever in my pisay life.. It was obvious that the competition between year level was very.... todo? hehe.. waa!!!! but in the end... the illuminas still prevailed!!!! [hi marie here] wahaha.... sumingit ba naman si marie.. :D hahaha!!! Actually, I am finishing this post here in Jason's house. We are having our batch party... heehe They are having a heart-to-heart talk.. tapos ako nag-nenet lang... waa!!!! neway, bulgaran na ng mga sekreto!!!! waa!!! hehe. I would really miss this batch!!!!!!!

as graduation day creeps closer and closer, i cant help but feel soo sad... i dont want to feel like this, but I cant help it. waa..... hope ill get over it...

..so-so..

2006-02-27T15:12:00.001+08:00

how can i begin this post? its been soo long since i last posted an entry.. hmm... the past few days were certainly the worst of my life. I dont have enough words to explain how I feel. im just going to share with you what exactly happened.

23 February 2006
I was going about doing my usual business, my bag tagging along behind me. I really taught that I have learned from my past experience, losing money and all. The day semed like any other day for me., fun and happy. It was club assessment and as the treasurer of Bidlisiw[our yearbook] I was excused from all my classes and thereby was asked to obeserve the ongoing assessment, even though our own assessment was still this friday. There I was thinking, "oh, how lucky can you get?" After the asssessment, I went down and played "chinese garter" The last time I played was maybe when I was still in elementary. Unlike any other thursday, we had no club meeting. So after hard play, me and my friends decided to go home. As I rode the jeepney, I noticed that most of the passengers were fellow fourth year students. Well, as usual, we were loud, but that was okay for me. Coz like I said, it was mostly pisayans in the jeepney. As I neared the intersection where I was to get off, I searched for my fare in my bag. Now well, my close friends would know that I harbor 2 purses, the white mercury drug purse and the green medicine purse The first purse that I stumbled upon was the green purse, I quickly discarded it because the money it stored was the bilisiw collections and the force funds. The white purse supposedly stored my own money. Alas! I found my white purse amidst all my things, then I finally got my fare. A couple of us were to go to SpaceBurger for a snack, so there was quite a number of us that got off the jeep. As we were walking towards SB, I noticed that my bag was open. kinutoban na ako doon pa lang kaya binilisan ko ang lakad papunta sa SB. When we arrived at SB, I quickly seaerched my bag for my 2 purses, and as luck would have it.... I only found 1. The feeling of insanity quickly stumbled my senses. Then suddenly.... there was emptiness. If only I could describe how the tears flowed fom my eyes that night. I cant help but feel so disappointed with myself. This just shows how irresponsible I am. After all those precautionary measures that I took. hai... inisip ko pa nga magpakamatay nalang sa sobrang pagiging depressed. The 3000 bucks that I myself would replenish could have been used for better means. p*****-i** talaga!!!!!!!!!!

25 Februiary 2006
say bye-bye to braces.... After four years, my braces are finally out.... well, the upper portion only.... hehehe

25-27 February 2006
...... complete and utter depression...........black and white.......emptiness....... the best words to describe that moment of my life. People who know me would know that , these things would be so out of my vocabulary. All the energy seemed to run out of my system. After that episode, it seems that no real laughter or smile would ever, ever escape my lips. Mind is too preoccupied of thinking about ways to get that 3000 bucks back to listen to the teacher, or even prepare for the exams due the next day. I cant study. I cant concentrate. Definitely not myself. Seems like this would never end.

28 February 2006
...... exams....physics....... hell.......no study.......... argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! As I entered Neutrron [my section] i am prepared to die. Physics [my worst subject] is the first exam due on the first day of our 3-day exam. wala na tlga akong pag-asa nito.. Ruth, who is my seatmate was going on about the UPCAT results... putik!!!!! isa pa yan!!!! I was dreading the results of UPCAT. The day I took the UPCAT, I was not in condition nor in the mood at all. Few days before the UPCAT I was confined in the hospitral for dengue isa pang putik. The day before the exam, I was released due to my persuation skills. hoi no!! d ako papayag na hindi ako makakatake ng upcat exams!!!! HA! After the exams, it was official. The UPCAT RESULTS are out!!!! My heart was pounding, my hands are sweaty as I waited for news about my results. My friend Kamille has a brother studying in UP DILIMAN so we had an update on those who passed via sms. Depression mode blasted to full force when I was informed that unfortunately, I didnt pass upcat... parang gumuho yung buong mundo ko... puro nalang kamalasan ang dumadating sa buhay ko... I mean come on.... who would not feel bad about not passing UP.... hahai.... it seems I was really bound for SILLIMAN UNIVERSITY. I have no other options unless I just want to study here in Davao. [UP and SILLIMAN are the only schools I took entrance exam.] . ai tama! pumasa rin pala ako sa msu iligan.. pero di naman ako papayagan na doon mag-aral waa!!!!! but it seems life just played a joke on me. As were eating our lunch, another friend Ruth me kapatid xa sa UP LB naman told me that I PASSED!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!! Depression mode suddenly disappeared... HAHA!!!!!!!! I was one of the many who shouted for joy!!!!! YEHEY!!!!! Even if I dont like my course that much, I am still super glad I passed UP DILIMAN!!!! yehey!!!!!!! At least I have more options now...
BORMUEL, KAY MACAVINTA --- DILIMAN CAMPUS---BS MATERIALS ENGINEERING
wahahahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!! :D

03 March 2006
Exams are finally over!!!!!!!!!!!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The nothing-to-do-but-just-nothing days are finally here!!!! Grades are the only thing I need to worry about now... Depression mode went down a notch... :D
04 March 2006
It is a saturday and due to what happened last 23 February 2006, I have no plans to go malling or any other gimicks,... for short no plans to spend money.... haha... After going to the dentist, I went home straight. I was about to go to a deep slumber when my friend Marian called. She was inviting me to come-over to their house to watch the episodes of "MY NAME IS KIM SAM SOON" hehehe.... This is the latest Korean tela novela Im going la-la about since Only you!!!!!!! gosh!!!!!!!! The storyline is just so hilarious and Hyeon Bin is just soooooooo utterly handome!!!!! I stayed in their house until 9:00 pm thereby putting to risk my chance of going to DILIMAN.... owell.... Im just so crazy about it.... wahahahha...... CYRUS/ JIN HEON!!!!!!

..wa happened to me?!?!..

2006-02-21T10:31:00.000+08:00

hmm... it is once again a thank-you-for-the-net comsci time.. As I sit here, staring on the screen, I rackled my brains for something intellginet to say. Ha! Fat chance... pipol hu know me wud most probably laugh at my face when they hear this... :D owel, it is nothing to me. I know that I could be really intelligent if I want to, but I could also be really, REALLY stupid consciously but most of the time, sub consciously.. I sometimes think wa really happened to me? I mean, khaye, nu man ngyari sau? di ka man gnyan dati... khayeb0w!!! na unsa man ka oi? Those are just the common thing pipol ask me after a MORF moment.. ahaha.. well, i also dont have an explanation for it.. maybe the closest that i could get to is that pipol change thruogh time... they discover theirselves, they rediscover and repeat the cycle again and again... Every other day, it is nice to find something new about us... wahaha...i dunno why i am like this, but after reassesing myself.... i discovered that i like myself... I love this new change in me.. okay, there maybe times that i just have to hate myself but really... most of the time, i love the way khaye is doing... :D dont you just lurve the feeling of making other pipol smyl? laugh? Happy? well, it is such a superb feeling knowing that they are feeling that certain way because of me... haha... there maybe times when it is just too much, or when it crosses the limits.. hOI, WAG NU NMANG GANYANIN C KHAYEB0W... OI KASAMA NU, AYWA DAW SAD ANAA SI KHAYEBOW maybe there are times that i myself get hurt hey, im notr going to deny that it is ok all the time..im not afraid to admit it.. im just human.. i cry when someone hurts me, i pity myself when someone insults me.. i even look at myself as inferior sometimes.. Pano mo ginagawa khaye bow? d ka lagi ngagalit.. You know how? I just look at the positive aspect of it... hehe... there's always something positive about everything.. if you olweiz look at thing in the negative aspect, well gud luk to you and your pathethiclife, if not... well soon-to-be pathethic life.. haha... plus! you get to practice your patience, ayt? hehe... owel, SMILE!!!! thats the best way to put it!~!! hehe whenever life feels unfair, mop a litol... then smyl!!!!! :D it is the best weapon I have ever known... :D haha... cge na... gnakapoi na ko sakaka-english... cyah!

..my pr0m night..

2006-02-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

its been a long time since i posted in my blog... hahai. so much has been happening lately and i dont have much time to write everything... owel. last saturday we had our prom in Grand Men Seng Hotel.. it was quite fun except for the killer stiletto[is my spelling correct?] and the killer straps of my gown.. we won 3rd place for our class dance which is boogie.. i really thought that we would fair badly since our music was a complete disaster, thanks to the crappy sound system. haha.. isabotage ba naman... hehe owel.. i think we deserved it since we really practised for our dance... well, im just happy that the top 3 places were grabbed by the SENIORS.. hooray!!! by the way, the food also sucks. i mean, the beef steak?!?! urgh!!!! it might as well still be frozen... and the chicken?!?! urgh!!! still raw.. by the way, the songs played for the socials are also alien songs... i mean, come on... there are a lot more songs that could be played, y play d songs we haven't even heard of?! well, the prom is not a complete disaster... i would also like to thank my partner for my mask... its not really absolutely wow-ing.. but at least there was an effort.. thank you also for being a gentleman... at least he is better among the other juniors, who were sad to say, ungentleman accdng to their respective Senior partners.. good thing I belong to this batch... hahhaa i luve ILLUMINA, [thats the name of our batch...] well, we stayed overnight in the hotel.. actually, most of our batch and some juniors stayed.. badtrip xa konti coz other pips were so loud in the corridors... they were very unconsiderate and the hotel mngmnt kept on requesting us to behave properly... urgh!!! as a result, they noticed that we were unusually many in our room that was supposed to be only for two.. haha.. mkalagot!! when our bill arrived, we had an additional 800php [400php per person] mga seniors pa tlga ang nahuli lang.. wahaha.. well, i had fun swimming in the pool [with the weird bra thing lang] bawal kasi alang swimming attire, malay ba namin... haha!!! after endless chikahan and playing of card and eating junk and no slip... we went to sm and made laag.. haha kataw -anan lagee yun na konyo.. :D owell.. over-all, it was an okey prom... my only regret was that i didn't have much pix.. i dunno what has gotten over me... i know that this is our last year, blah, nyah... yet i still missed that oppurtunity.. god, that sucks!!

..my honey's bday!!! :D..

2006-02-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. past midnyt na, pero ok lang... ala nman pasok tomorrow... :D hehe... ilang days na nagpast since last post ko... owell... magbawi na lng aku ngyn. hahai... today, actually last night, bday ng my one and only *h0ney Labs* CHRISTOPHER ALEC MAQUILING.. happy 17th bday my labs.. :D tumanda ka nnamn.. hehe... nagcelebrate kmi sa haus nila alec, with other pisay pips... thanks to alec , mama virginia and maquiling relatibs for d food!!! :D LIPAY kaau... parang ngyn na tlga nga sink in sa akin na w0w... 4th qtr na.... gagraduate na tlga kmi... huhu... khit na sad aku, im trying to enjoy d "lasts" of my hi-skul years.. :D hehe sabay-sabay din kming nanood ng "only you the final episode.." haha.. beautiful as ever parin si jillian/chun yang.... pero si JO HYUN JAE!!!!! ang gwapo tlga nya!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!! hahai... :D bonus pa tlga kasi mgkakasama kami lhat... owel... hahai... sayang hindi nkapnta ung mga ibang pips.. :( hahai... sana me next tym pa... malapit na ang promenade nmin!!! sa 11 feb 06 sa grand men seng hotel.. mjo exited na ako.. me prax nga kmi bukas para sa sayaw naiprepresent by class... 2 kinds of dance ang salihan ko kasi magsub ako doon sa isang section(which is proton) kasi kulang sila ng girls.. Tango and boogie yung mga dance... tango sa proton and opkors boogie para sa section kong neutron!!! haha!!! d pa kmi tpos sa dance... buti pa ang proton, tapos na sila.. pero i believe in our abilities!!!! kaya yan maxado!! kaya nga lang, kami lang sa neutron yung alang prax bukas... ung proton and electron ( na ang sayaw is mambo) ay magpaprax bukas... pero advantage xa for me, kasi hehe.. mkaprax aku ng tango.. :D haha... owel... ppnta pa ko bukas sa dress shop, kasi tumawag sila sakin kanina to say na tapos na daw yung gown ko for prom... hahaha.. honestly, mjo exited aku na takot na d mapakali... kasi, hehe gusto ko tlga yung design ko... makalipay kasi xa.. kaso syur nman aku na d dn maging ganon yung outcome ng gown ko.. (pessimistic tlga, aku..) hehe ewan, ayaw ko lang kasi madisappoint... :( haha... owel... nagiguilty rin aku masyado na relieved na guilty uli... burial kasi ng lola ko na mama ng papa ko tomorrow sa butuan.. i feel so guilty na hindi aku mkapnta... :( d na nga kami nging klos noong buhay pa xa kasi prang d na xa nga think straight noong nagka-isip ako pati malayo kami from her, d pa tlga ako nka pay ng last respects ko.. :( pro relieved din aku kasi ang dami tlga naming requirements!!!! :(( as in!!! isipin nu, kung natuloy san aku, uuwi akong mag-isa tos gai pa nman tos ang byahe is 7hrs, ang fare 500, babae pa tlga ako, at d ko pa nman kabisado ung place... kaya ayun worried aku maxado... tos anong oras na ynag dating ko don w/c is approx mga 6 or 7 am den burial, den uwi ng sunday.... kapui xado.. d nako mkakagawa ng mga requirents na dami na xado... hahai... but then again, im stil so guilty!!!!! hahai.. if you could understand what im tolking about.... weird tlga yang mixed feelings.... hahai.. owel... cge, me prax pa kami bkas ng 9am.. babayootzz!!!

..SALAMAT, dan!!..

2006-01-31T10:49:00.000+08:00

hahai.... thanks to our free internet comsci time, makakapost nanaman aku saa aking blog... :D gusto ko lang iaknowledge si KRIS GEM DANICA PASIA... dakila ka dan! :D ssalamat xaado dan! you made this blog possible! GEISHA... ano nga ba ito? ayon sa mga hapon, ang geisha daw ay mga ARTIST, ENTERTAINERS noon sa japan... malimit silang ikumpara sa mga prosti pero d sila mga prosti!!!! ang pagiging geisha ay pinag-aaralan at sila ay may ibat-ibang role sa society.. i am a geisha in my own unique way... i am an artist when it comes to make-up at isang entertainer sa klasrum nmin... ... haha owel... icontinue ko lang ito maya.... tym na kasi... cyah!

..ak0 it0, si danica..

2006-01-24T10:36:00.000+08:00

comsci time. wala akong magawa. hindi ko memorize ang hexadecimal ng mga colors. kaya, ito nalang muna kbo.

..raniel's bday!! :D..

2006-01-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

hai... last tuesday was my berks bday... :D we , " the force" really pondered about our presentation for our frend , Raniel... hehe at last, we decided to have a little get together... so, izy, tal and myself went to the clinic to call KFC... :D nhirapan pa tlga aku makipag usap sa mga pips kasi mahina maxado ang feedbak ng fon sa clinic... para akung baliw na cge sbi ng "ano po?" "ha?" "helow?" nyehhe... sa huli, lumipat nlang kami sa annex faculty na phone dahil nka ilang ulit narin kami ng twag at feeling ko akala ng mga tao na niloloko lang nmin sila....:D after we ate, i really felt full!!! it was as if my stomach was about to burst... :D hehe... but i was happy coz we made rain happy!!! she is now 15 yrs old... can u beliv it? i min... im 2 years older than her!!!! hahah but im younger looking nman.. :D hihi... i also would like to acknowlege my berk, izy for taking pity on my pathetic skills in blogging and finally deciding to help me.. hehe.. thanks you very much iz!!! haha.. well, i gotta go... we have a very hectic schedule tomorrow.. and its card giving day!!!! haha... well, i promise to edit my blog again this weekend.. owell... babayutz!!! :D

2006-01-08T20:00:00.000+08:00

hahai... im still trying to arrange and make sumthin about ds blog of myn.. if u can actually call it a blog.. im still havin a hard tym, owel.. but im learnin... its kinda tiring but i made a promise to myself, ayt? better keep it... hahai... owel... d results for the acet is out and im really happy for those who passed... well for those who havent... better luck nxt tym.... hehehe.... i really fil stupid for not taking the acet... i mean i paid for the 500 and all, but i somehow got lazy and by some miracle i forgot to pass it... hahai... jokin... actualy i just figured dat i wont be going to ateneo for dat matter so y bother take the test, ayt? haha well.... i just hope i did take the test... syang din ksi yung 500/... owel.. tama... last sat, we had a slipover at the haus of iz... actually,dpat 3 kmi nila rain, cj... tyempo na sabay halos kami dumating ni ceej... kala namin dumating na c rain, pro nag bak out sa last minute ang babae... hai!!!! kaya ayun... kming 3 ung nandn da haus.. i actually felt really embarrased bout it coz i kinda feel lyk were invading deir place... hahai... later dat nyt... we watched "ONLY YOU" featured in abs-cbn... i really find, tj attractive!!!! :D hehe iz and i also got to tok bout some stuff, after ceej fell asleep... nyeheh... well, d next day we watched "in her shoes" and "just lyk heaven"... i really love "just lyk heaven" its really a feel good muvie.. hehe... owel... i really had fun and i really hope we get to do ds again... :D labsyoo fwendz!!!

2006-01-05T22:00:00.000+08:00

hellow!!!!!! another year has begun!!! as my new year's resolution, i promised to make a blog for myself.. owell.. thanx to dan and mara for inspiring me.. haha... at least ngayun meron na aku kahit isang post.. :D sana mas maayos ko pa ito... hehehe.. tama pala.. pumunta aku sa blog ni dan, at may IMPOSTOR na gumagamit ng name ko!!!! omg!!!! as in... tos ang nilagay pa tlga sa tagboard kay somehing about Xtn Chiu!!! as if... no offense xt, ha. .. pero d ko naman aagawan si MARA!!!!! hahai.... owel.. ewan.. cge.... happy na aku nka post naku... babayutz!!! :D